Into my second month since I last had an orgasm, I cannot believe how horny I am! I really do feel like Liz Taylor; “a cat on a hot tin roof” with a totally gay husband. This pussy is burning up, and no satisfaction may be had. Three months minimum of this? Whoa! I don’t think it’s been that long since I was 13. The difficulties of being newly post-op.
I was unprepared for how emotionally difficult gender reconstruction surgery would be. I knew it would be painful. I knew there would be a lot of work involved. I knew the recovery process would be long. I was not expecting how emotionally isolating it would be, and was also unprepared for how to deal emotionally with complications to surgery that I knew could happen. So difficult to be a transsexual. I tried so hard to avoid it, but it didn’t seem avoidable at all anymore.
Now I’m six years into living my truth, and I guess at least it is just barely livable now, which is something it was not before.
I’ve been thinking I need to go to my first therapist who said I wasn’t really trans and say “look, you were wrong!”. I’m so grateful I’ve had a friend to take me in. Otherwise my difficulties and healing and my loneliness would be completely overbearing.
I suspect the question in the title is a question I should avoid asking. Otherwise, like Job I may be asked to endure further hardships.
Women are so much more powerful than men. We’ve just been trying to think it was otherwise, when in reality there is no humanity without women. Far too often women are changed to be embarrassed by their abilities, in lieu of being proud of their abilities. Women are Badass!
I wonder if I should take some pictures of my penis before it goes bye-bye in a month. I wish I knew someone who was a decent photographer who would be willing to do it with out keeping copyrights.